​Regret

Dear the old me,
You must be shocked finding this mail.
You have more time to do something because it is too late for me.
At least, I do what I can do.

We made a mistake.
It is about our brother.
I know you were in that state, telling everyone you were okay with his choice but actually, you still cannot accept that.
You can fake it to everyone, but not me.
We are the same person.
We’ve been through the same thing.
I was too stubborn back then.
Ah not that. I didn’t want to admit that. Deep down I was still hoping, he made a mistake.

We avoided the fact that they wouldn’t be back together if they didn’t have good things between them.
Just like us with our choice, our partner.
She always be true to us, since the very beginning, when we had that deep conversation with her.
We kept ignoring her presence.
We kept doing things unintentionally (or intentionally) to show them we were not accepting our brother’s choice and treat her like the outsider.

You know who hurt the most?
Our brother.

I can see through his eyes.
We’re not treating him like our brother because we have no respect for him.
We’re the one who closes the door and expects him to knock. He actually knocked, but we still close the door.
And now, I miss him.
So badly.
He stopped knocking at our door.
All I have just regret.

With love,
Future Self

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